when i grow up.

I want to be a dancer, and a teacher, and a wife, and a mom. I want the best of the best. I want to fall in love, I want to be in love, I want to love. I want happily ever after and forever. I want to dance around the world with my husband, like an elderly woman I met tonight. I want what so many have no faith or hope in, and what very few people have. I do want to be the best wife for my husband someday, and I want to deserve him. I want babies. I want to be the greatest mom kids could have. I want to be like my mom, my Oma, my aunts, my uncles, my Young Women's leaders, my grandmothers, all of my dance coaches, my dad, and my Savior. I want the love and respect of my husband, in a passionate and beautiful way. I want my kids to trust me, to stay close to me, and to be inspired by me. I want to teach dance to youth someday. I want to go on roadtrips with my family. I want to go camping with my family, and hiking, and boating, and traveling all over the world. I want to have a gorgeous kitchen so I can cook for my husband and kids, so I can create delicious dinners and fun treats. I want to have a sleigh bed. I want big dogs that live inside and out. I want flowers and roses surrounding the property. I want to see mountains all day long. I want warm showery springs, hot summers, cool falls, and snowy white winters. I want to backpack through Great Britain. I want to experience Italy and Germany. I want to take photos of my kids growing up. I want to live in a house big enough for my family, with lots of windows, brown siding, white trim, at least two bathrooms, a big porch, and plenty of property. I want to keep a weekly journal of my family from the second I get married to the day I die. I want to be twinkled. I want to be old and wise someday. I want a set of special family scriptures. I want to search the scriptures with my family, I want to ponder with my family, and I want to pray with my family. I want to laugh every day of my life. I want to go to sleep at night, and wake up for the sunrise. I want to stay awake all through the night, experiencing the sunset and sunrise. I want to sleep under the stars. I want to swim naked in lakes. I want to sew blankets for my kids. I want to relax with my husband. I want to teach my kids that it's okay to drink hot chocolate all year round. I want to dance cheek to cheek with my husband. I want to dance through the kitchen with my babies. I want my kids to be the very best of friends. I want to have a husband. I want to read books to my family. I want to go on walks through fields. I want to have apple trees. I want to cook organically. I want to be organized. I want to lay close to those I love. I want to kiss my husband everyday like it was the first and last kiss. I want to believe in magic. I want to try my hardest and never give up. I want to go to the temple every week. I want to be sealed in the temple for eternity to the man of my dreams. I want to dance at Blackpool individually and formation. I want to make ice cream on my porch. I want to run through the sprinklers on a hot day. I want to help people, and love them, and take care of them. I want to write letters to my husband until I die. I want to learn something new everyday. I want my heart to beat.

Think that's a long list of wants? Get used to it. And you know what? It will happen.