It's a good feeling

It's Sunday morning now, and I'm sitting on the couch opposite of a sleeping Madi.  We had a little party last night, just the two of us.  We ordered pizza and watched Someone Like You.  The greatest part of the whole scene was Charlie, our Christmas tree, all decorated and lit up.  I knew I could relax.  Exams are over for a while, and no dancing for a while to focus on classes.  It just felt good.  Actually, it still feels good.  Madi just woke up, and all my roommates are making pancakes and we're listening to Christmas music (shhhh!).  Moments like this just make me grateful for my life.

Actually, I know it might come as a shock (joke), but I've been incredibly selfish lately.  I complain constantly about dance, school, love.... yeah, it's been pathetic.  The sad part is that I knew how I was behaving the whole time, but I didn't do a thing about it, and now I'm sorry.  The thing I was the worst about was dance. You know the bit... dance partnerships, teams, jealousy.  But then yesterday I got a chance to really watch my good friends dancing.  I was SO proud of them and I stopped being jealous.  Madi danced Amateur with Brent and she was really nervous.  Right before she went out I ran up to her and before I realized it, I told her she deserved her parter (she was having doubts) and that she is incredible - because she is!   She went out and danced like an angel.  She made semi finals and was competing against some big shots.  I was just so happy for her, and Ashley and Will got 2nd in novice.  I have the greatest friends, I seriously do.  

And me?  Well, I have a lot to be thankful for.  I'm grateful for my partner, and for my friends, roommates, my family, and just to be here!  I really have a great life, and wishing for things I can't change just makes me miserable.  So, let it be known, I AM HAPPY!  (I know it must come as a shock after all those dumb sad blog posts.) 

I know for the most part who reads this, so I can say this:  You are my friend and I love you.  You have made such a huge difference in my life.  Thank you for everything you are and for what you have done for me.  I am so grateful!  Have a wonderful week ahead!  :)